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22 August 2011

Arm's length from harm ...Crossing the road in Ha noi









 I did , just like  he said
for  he should know best
He was  born here
even his father was
though now dead
and buried twice

I closed my eyes and
paced my steps slow
Halfway through,  nerves gave in
that ‘s been my weakness
most times
with bright rays tapping at my eye lids
I had to

The tide of wheels
I could see
rising  at arms length
then the red light could not hold no more
it flowed through
to the  empty side of the street
I stand surrounded
Amidst wheels
Of burden
Amidst Faces
curious
The smell of burning 
petrol
I stand in the middle of the road
yet I am not here

 A chicken in a box , securely tied to the back seat .
Perhaps dinner.
Chicken  cackles
a feeling of crude reality seeps in

A girl leans forward and whispers in her lovers ear
They laugh.
A young boy sings aloud
riding with his mother
a bag of Rambutans hanging from his hand
Young men in their evening best
 peer from the timeless balcony
at the girl in the short skirt and heels
riding her scooter

I close my eyes
and proceed with my measured steps 




21 August 2011

Boy selling sea shells


Sea shell seller, Halong bay resident,.Curious onlooker.
Halong Bay . Vietnam

Girl talk




Afternoon. After school.  In the courtyard of the ancient pagoda, they sell postcard and other nick nacks . That's the excuse atleast. Mostly they just tell stories, feel the love  and giggle .

06 August 2011

Rice fields






There is something relaxing in the way the green sways in the gentle breeze. something serene in the equally spaced paddy in the shallow water .

07 May 2011

Mahaley/ Dear Daughter

දුවේ
කිරි සුදු  අලුත්  ගවුමට 
හැකිද  හංගන්ට 
වියලුනු  ලේ  පැ
ල්ලම් 

නුඹේ හිතේ
ඉතිරිවුණු 


හිමිදිරියේ  ගුරුපාරේ  
නුඹ  පතුලට  දැනුනු 
 ඉකි  ගහන  මහ පොලොව 
අලුත්  තණ ලපලු  අග 
රැඳුනු  උණු  කඳුළු  බින්දු 
දැන්  නොදැනේද  
කිරි  කිරි  සපත්තු  විනිවිද  

අලුත්  අභ්‍යාස පොත්  පිටු

සමාන්තර  ඉරි  අතර
නොලියේද  දැන්
හිතේ ගුලි  උන
නුඹේ  දුක   


Can the new  dress
pallid as a soaring  crane 
cover the dried blood stains
splattered in your heart
once upon a life time 

Do you still feel? 
the heaving breasts
of a sighing  mother 
Earth
the warm dew of tears  
on the new blades 
through your new Bata shoes
on your way to school

Between parallel lines , so straight
on those blank white pages 
does the sorrow coiled
deep within
get scribbled 
still



Ps: In remote hamlets in North , the Wanni and the east, kids now walk to school .
The atmosphere is still a mixture of shock, relief , baron land , widows , doubt and silence. There is new blades of grass growing from the earth once burnt with gun powder and soaked with blood . Where many fathers , brothers , sisters  are buried .
New uniforms , school equipment , shoes arrive at their schools through the roads from the south .
But it takes more to heal…It takes understanding 


01 April 2011

Mrs Perera's Worldcup

02Apr11, 1030 hrs , 4 hours to toss

Mrs Perera took her “heart medicine “ well in advance . For today is the last one, in Bombay. (This Mumbai , Chennai business is still alien to her) .

Should get ready for the evening. Will order string hoppers from the boutique down the road for today, she makes the dinner plans in her mind.

“Doolage Thaththaa , Chicken curryda , Fish curryda ada raata one?”
She checks her husband’s preference.


1130am, 3hrs to toss

She meets Soma near the old Maara tree. At the exact place where once there was a Army checkpoint stands a cutout of the great Sri Lankan Spinner. In his bowling stride , snapped wide eyed , just before he delivers one of his deceiving deliveries.

The check point mentality and lifestyle have waned since the last over in Nandikadal . The loud cheer that was once for the heroes in camouflaged fatigue, seem to have re-emerged for the boys in blue.
.
“Lalani, Angelo is not playing lu ane , they have sent Vaas to play” She shares some latest information her son in law has picked up from Cricinfo.com.

“ E unata he has not played any games ne “ Mrs Perera is concerned

“His daughter goes to the same school as menaka’s little one ne “ Soma draws a connection . “One day I saw him at the school gate , He is looking very fit men “. Soma defends with a straight bat

“ Hopefully we will win this one “ Soma speaks her nerves.

“I made a vow for 25 buns to St Anthony also Lalani “ Soma takes stand confidently . For today, it seem in Srilanka’s corner will stand a few deities and a few saints, led by the ordained one from Padua .


1400 hrs – after the toss ,
umpires walking in to the middle

“Achchi , are you watching Cricket ?”
Mrs Perera’s Grand daughter queries in her alien accent over the telephone lines

. “Yes yes , I was just saying my evening prayers early duwa, and after that I will sit to watch the match, are you watching the match too ? “She consciously speaks slowly with double spaces in between her words , so that the young girl could gather

“Yes we are going for a Cricket party now , and Achchi I am wearing my Sri Lanka T shirt “

“ She is going to a Cricket Party “ Mrs Perera précis for her husband’s benefit , who has been standing behind her for any information that spills .


2000hrs – 24.4 overs , 2nd session

“Me , eka no ball nemeyda?” (isn't that a no ball)
Mrs Perera reverts to her husband for a better judgment.

Mr Perera , after obtaining permission to have a few shots of Arrack today, has
(As per Mrs Perara’s records) smuggled 3 glasses of carefully poured two finger widths of Mendis’ brew filled with Elephant house Soda so far .

Since finishing the last shot , his calling for runs , rearranging of the rest of the batting order and expert insights have gone quiet

“Ara ayeth damma , There he did that again , Thawa podden it would have hit Dilshan’s head “ She turns to the arm chair as she launch another loud appeal.

“Not out “ Mr Perera ,mumbles in his sleep.

22 February 2011

Narahenpita Railway Crossing . 0645 am

Dark children , plastic buckets dangling  off their twig like limbs 
Like some bizarre fruit   
on their way to the tap at the end of the lane,  where rusted water run
wave their hands
 at the Six seventeen rushing past 
more of  habit than with any hope 

The train hoots 

19 February 2011

Prince William from Pollonnaruwa

It was the first day at school and by 7 o clock the front yard of the grade 6 block was buzzing  with parents.
However, this was not wholly the usual flock , who would park their vehicles under the majestic Maara tress and  walk to the school ( College as they call it. ). 

It was the day that the scholarship recipients were coming to school , and this was a different kind of a crowd.
 These were people who have  come most of their journey by public transportation. These were people who’d  got down from Thunmulla junction and hired  a Three wheeler to bring their son, (who has more or less won a kingdom for them ), to the school gates  . Because first impressions count.

While they gathered in the school yard, the humble three wheelers were  parked in between the row of Prado’s and Audis ,  on this side of the tea house where a myna bird in a cage hung low by the entrance, like commas in a string of words punctuating what matters

That was the first day I saw him . His name…..That  I would hold to be stated later, lest dramatic effect in the flow get’s lost.

In appearance he was like any others eleven year old , clean white suit , side parted hair. Another  lad who has got through the year 5 scholarship exam and was  selected to go to the best college in the country (arguably), far away from his village .

His father , in his white national dress, strolled around  marveling the sights and sounds of this esteemed institution that his son would study from that day onwards. The village lad would study here and come out someone who mattered in the land.
His eyes were fixed on the ancient Ehala tree giants who had spread over their branches , the  usual saffron flora rash , common to that season. Lest he meet the glances of the gentlemen with their loosened silk nooses  and sunglasses on their foreheads .
He did not want to face an awkward situation of a conversation. What could he talk about . He did not want to humiliate his son.

Inside the class room the teacher was marking the attendance.
“Prince William Sooriyabandara”  she called out the name

The boy stood up “ Present Madam” .

The laughter has spread from the front row to a few rows behind ,  by the time the kind hearted  teacher asked
“Oya lamayata  wena namak nathda” (Do you have another name)

“ I am  Prince William Sooriyabandara from Polonnaruwa, and madam I can not speak Sinhalese “ the boy answered in proper queen’s lingo .

Here was a son of a school teacher from a small school at the edge of the Pollonaruwa district. Keeping with his father’s dream from his younger days being coached for years  to pass this one exam and enter the big college in the city.
 Father being an English teacher, that was the language the boy was encouraged, tutored and forced to speak in. The mother,  although a teacher herself,  spoke very little to the boy in her broken English , so not to spoil the sons progress and feel out of place when he attends the big school, so we learnt later.

That is how Prince came to be our acquaintance.

A Boy’s response . A Father’s pride. Blooming Esala trees.
________________________________________________________________________

It has been about 4 years since our first meeting and we were at Prince’s father’s funeral. 

 The coffin was kept in the middle of the small hall .  The bare brick walls, hoping to be one day covered in white plaster,  told the story of a school master’s meager wage.

 A small girl served us plain tea in water tumblers. Her cheeks were blushed pink, she kept her eyes turned to the ground . Her friends were giggling in the background at their friend’s plight. Boys of a certain age notice and remember these things.

Our friend’s mother rushed out in a white Saree , so evidently  wrapped around in a hurry.

In her hands were two bottles filled with luminous colored liquid, bottled by the good folks at the Elephant House.

“Ane mama meka aran thiyagenamay hitiye , Handiye kaden ,  . Me daruwanta oya kahata puruduyay?”
( I bought this in advance from the boutique in the town, don’t think you boys are used to plain tea)

We did not go to explain about the quality of plain tea in the school canteen or how one packet of rice is shared among six people . That wasn’t the moment for modesty.

We knew , at that moment, in this humble funeral home , we were the proof of  the school master’s dream coming true.  That his efforts were not in wane.

The boy who spoke no Sinhalese has conquered his kingdom impossible and returned with his friends from the college in the city.

We just played the part. The guests of honour at the funeral.

________________________________________________________________________

After a while, I  lost track of Prince. For what I know , he too like many of us,  would have lived the life of a price horse , won the race. and waned . Was it too soon? Who are we to judge .

Then I ran in to him one day at a big match, at P Sara Stadium , the year  I think was 1997.

The big match. Those 3 days , distinguished men from all walks of life , from presidents to  humble university undergrads , from the who’s who of the private sector to the young who have just joined the fray , acted like old boys .
Got drunk to the brim for 3 days and acted silly , all in the name of  a fraternity of sorts.

I digress , anyway there he was in one of the stands, waving a flag of three colour strips, leading a choir of like minds  singing the infamous songs about the Thambi  and his daughter,  and the one about the cause of death his Lansi  neighbor.

Side parted hair. White shorts.
 “ Prince William Sooriyabandara from Pollonaruwa  who did not speak Sinahalese” . 
Not bad .

________________________________________________________________________
  
Venue :Sarasvathi Bawan (a Dosai serving restaurant ) in Wellawatte
Time: 10 am Tuesday

There he sits , dressed in a short sleeved shirt and a  blue tie ,having a cup of plain tea .

“Prince” I call out  to him.

“ah machan , kohomada? (how are you). “ pleasantries reciprocated, he take a long look at me .

“After about 10 years Machan “ he sighs

“Yes” I can not think of anything else to  say. Silence flows gently under the bridge

He gets up
“Love to chat up Machan, but  mata thawa three places cover karanna thiyenawa , I need to go” , ( I  need to cover three more places )
  
"Let's meet up sometime"  He hands me a business card , that reads Sales manager
“call me after five machan , and ask for Suri”
  
“Campus yanna bari unanae .  Hondha welawata college eke namay , ara poddak Kaduwa puluwan nisay me job eka hamba une ”
He summarizes his life story . How he could not get in to the university but found a job in sales thanks to the name of the college and his ability to speak English and  gets in to the van with a smiling lady holding  a packet of washing powder , painted on the side.

A Sales manager.  Washing powder. A wiry body in a white national attire. Esala trees . 

13 February 2011

Between here and now

Between here and now
Lies a place
That makes little or no sense
            


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05 December 2010


My First book Trincomalee Sunday .

The proceeds from the sale of the book goes towards building school library in the war ravished eastern
Sri Lanka , through the "Children of the conflict" project by Candleaid Lanka.
 http://www.candleaid.org/postwar.

Trincomalee Sunday



Rose water pink

Green yellow sweet
Saruwath man clinks
his bottles full of dreams

Trincomalee Saruwath
Trincomalee dreams

Azure ,Cobalt waves
neat reindha edged
uncurling
on  the lonely white sands

Trincomalee waves

Trincomalee sands

Sweet nothing whispers
them lovers’ hush between
the prying breeze
picks & carries away
flaring up hopes
the kind, one keeps
hidden deep within

Trincomalee breeze
Trincomalee hopes



That was yesterday
one Trincomalee  Sunday
(Clear skies, cotton clouds
completing the fantasy)
I must confess, that  I too drifted
caught up in the
daze 



That was yesterday
before
simpler times blurred
for reasons unfortunate
leaving just stories
(everyone’s got a story)
nobody’d tell 



Trincomalee storytellers
Trincomalee tales 



Note:
Saruwath:              A sweet , brightly colored sugary drink sold specially at village fairs

Reindha:               Lace

14 October 2010

Where we write from.

We write from our
 memory traps
millions pores
in our cortex
We write from
our muse
that invisible place between 
the shoulder blades
the hazy blur
between you and the pinchpoint
takes shape of a word sketch
between  oh so perfect
parallel lines

We write from our
beliefs
the lead burrow
deep in the pit of our belly

But never
never from the
heart
that’s a misconception
an excuse

09 October 2010

So.... verbs?



So
Heaven .
              You  said , while you slurped last bitter drop
              of the cheap
             double espresso shot
is a verb

So
Love.
 is a
verb too
             there you again
              scuffling your shawl

So.
here contemplating
sit I
on the proper syntax of the three word parade
I was about to mumble
‘fore all this

17 September 2010

Design flaw

If it was meant that way
To wash off your feet
'fore you
leave the shore
would the cleansing waves
by the sand
be fringed

16 September 2010

How long does a sunset take

From the point that
the golden threads across the blue
the wrinkles of the day gone
the blotches of a strange colour scheme
the crows come roost
bats headout
fathers come home
alter lamps are lit
a hen gathers her brood

To the point
the pot of rice overcooks
on a disremembered flame

15 September 2010

Cancer Hospital photoshoot

Muse

I saw some pictures, in monochrome , taken at the Cancer hospital . Of mothers and  children . Worn out bandages and exposed canolas . And smiles through the pain , and hopeless eyes . Do not take me wrong ,I see the good intentions , yet it was disturbing.

I personally feel it is crossing the line. The photograph , the photographer gets attention ...and the subject...fades away . That's the plight here , some of them know of the iminent plight , yet it is living for the day that is the struggle.

The Poem

Please Smile
for the photograph
You can go back to your pain
suffering
nausia
and the
pain
after the click

PS:
After I wrote this,  I felt that writing about the photos was no better than the shoot itself . Two wrongs do not make a one right. How many wrongs does it take

30 August 2010

Forget me........Not

When I try to
forget you

From the grayed tangles
left between the teeth of a comb
from a waft of faint perfume
sitting light on the late autumn breeze
from the tender hum
of an old tune

You appear

And whisper in my ear
“ I am trying to forget you too”